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| 01:56pm 26/08/2005 |
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mood:  okay
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I've decided to move on to another journal. Right now I don't have a good background for it, but I'm teaching myself to make blends so I'll get something more interesting up there soon.
If you'd like to continue reading my LJ, just comment over at the new one and I'll add you. :) (My RL friends don't have a choice, I'm friending you with the new journal.)
The new journal is ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) sungoesdown17. See you over there! |
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| 11:14am 22/08/2005 |
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mood:  chipper music: Hungry Like the Wolf - Duran Duran (Yeah 80s!)
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I had my first day of class today, Soc 202 with Dr. Justice. I had him last Fall for Soc 201 and I liked him. He remembered me too. Even remembered that I liked Ayn Rand. :) It's nice to know that I stood out enough for him to remember me. I'd have to say that Dr. Justice is up there on my list of favorite teachers.
I'm sorta looking forward to the class, kinda not. There's only four other people in there so it's going to be pretty quiet. And it's at 9am so that means I've gotta be up at 7:30 so I can eat before my half-hour car drive. I hate having to drive to Abingdon for class. I'll be spending 4 hours a week on the Interstate. Oh well, I've gotta do it, so I'll just have to deal with it. At least that's 4 hours a week that I get to listen to music and sing loudly. There we go, that's the bright side. :)
Work is going ok. Sharron (one of the managers) told me I was doing a good job. I've stayed later than I was supposed the past two days, so they appreciate me for that.
Currently, I'm singing along with Hungry Like the Wolf by Duran Duran. I'd forgotten how fun that song is to sing.
"In touch with the ground
I'm on the hunt, I'm after you
Scent and a sound, I'm lost and I'm found
And I'm hungry like the wolf
Strut on a line, it's discord and rhyme
I howl and I whine, I'm after you
Mouth is alive, all running inside
And i'm hungry like the wolf" |
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| 07:41pm 18/08/2005 |
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mood:  obsessive music: Cells - The Servant
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I haven't updated at all for a long time...
So I should.
Since last I posted I've been to visit Chris again, gotten a job at Food Lion as a Sales Associate (Cashier), gone to Gatlinburg/Pigeon Forge/Sevierville/Knoxville for four days with Dad and Bri, and gotten absolutely and postively hooked on Sin City.
My visit with Chris was great. :) Just getting to be with him makes me happy. I really enjoyed going to the Met with him. It was loads of fun to walk around a look at art and discuss it with someone who enjoyed it as much as me. And being very lewd while in the Egyptian exhibit wasn't too bad either. ;) But really, at the risk of sounding completely cheesy, any time spent with Chris is wonderful.
I've been working at Food Lion since I got back from NJ. It's not too bad. Some really weird people come in there. There was this old man that came in the other day and just moaned the whole time he was in there. Really bizarre. And it still throws me for a second when someone that I don't know calls me by name. I keep forgetting that I have a name tag. ::blush::
We did lots of neat stuff on our Tennessee trip. We went to the Aquarium in Gatlinburg (they had an exhibit on pirates!), we went to this place called Parrot Mountain where this couple raise all these exotic birds and display them (there was one that laughed just like me. It made me laugh and so the more I laughed, the more it mimicked me and the more I laughed. Went on for ten or so minutes), went to the Knoxville Zoo, played mini-golf, shopped, and saw a Lucinda Williams concert.
Saturday night we rented Sin City from the movie channel that the hotel we were staying at had. I'm in love. That movie's been in head ever since. I ran out and bought it during my lunch half-hour the day it came out (the 16th) and I've watched it every day since then, at least a little. I found the song that plays in the trailer and the DVD menu and I've been listening to it on loop since it finished downloading today.
I highly reccomend this movie, with only one caveat: it is very, very violent. If you can't take that, then don't touch this movie. (However, the fact that it's mostly black and white seems to make it less gross, imo.) It's very film noir, very poetic, extremely artistic, the stories are great, the actors are awesome, I just love it. If I were to change my LJ layout from what it is now... I would make it a Sin City layout. Haven't felt the temptation to pay homage to anything else so strongly. I might play around and see what I can do. |
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| 03:46am 17/07/2005 |
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mood:  contemplative
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Well, I've been bad.
I pre-ordered HP:tHBP a looong time ago and so was included in this thing that Amazon did where they shipped the books overnight without charging us any extra. As I am going to be riding Greyhound to go see Chris this Monday (a roundtrip to NJ was actually cheaper than a trip to Williamsburg. And Chris is helping to pay for my trip so it's very afforable) I had decided that I would save the book for the ride...
Well, I wanted to at least see what the chapter titles were... and look at the artwork at the beginning of each chapter... it wouldn't be a crime to just read the first chapter, to get a feel for the book, you know...
8 hours later...
I'm done. Sometimes I wish that I didn't read as fast as I do. Especially after just having devoured a book and knowing that I will have to wait awhile until I can read the next one.
Oh well, I'll just read it again on the ride there. Maybe I'll bring OotP too.
I feel compelled to record my initial thoughts but as I know that most of you have not read the book yet, I'm going to put things behind the cut and if you want to leave a comment, just scroll by it quickly.
( First Thoughts )
As it's about 4am, I think that you can excuse my ramblings and I shall excuse myself from the net and go to sleep. |
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| 02:37am 08/07/2005 |
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mood:  sleepy
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As I have been tagged by two different people, I'd better do this survey thing. :)
List five things you do alone to relax.
1.) cuddle with Norbert (the teddy bear Chris got me) and think of Chris
2.) watch my X-Files collection (even though I remember what happens in most of the episodes)
3.) find one of my kitties taking a nap and curl up next to her and commune
4.) sing with great enthusiasm
5.) take a long, hot bath/shower
At least I kept the list PG . . . ::smirk:: I have dirty thoughts
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| 01:22pm 29/06/2005 |
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mood:  loved
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I had the best time in NJ with Chris. <3 It felt soooo good to get to see him again: to get to talk with him face to face, to kiss him, to be in his arms. I miss him so much already. We didn't do anything special, he just introduced me to his family and showed me around his town, but everything with him is made special simply because he's there. I'm going to have to try and see him in July and spend more time. I miss him so much and I just need to have some sort of plan made so that I have something to look forward to. Well, I'll try my hardest to work things out. |
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| 12:03am 24/06/2005 |
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mood:  bouncy music: My Chemical Romance - I'm Not Okay (I Promise) [ the video!]
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Well, I've been bad about posting. Someone should spank me. . . ;)
It's not like I've been up to much anyway. I pulled my X-Files collection out from under my bed and have been in the process of watching all Twenty-Four VHS tapes I made. I've been listening to NIN's With Teeth a lot. I really like that album. Also, I've fallen head over heels for the band My Chemical Romance. They are awesome. So I've been downloading every video file I can get my hands on. I love watching them perform. Maybe I'll be able to see them live sometime. . . they do come to Charlotte in August. . .
Just last weekend I went to Williamsburg with my Mom, her bf Don, and Briana. We spent two days at Busch Gardens which was lots of fun. I didn't get sunburned, and the lines weren't the bad on Friday so we got to see lots of shows on Saturday. I also got to spend a little bit of time with Andrew, Brian, and Craig on Saturday so that made me happy.
In other news, I've switched from zoloft to wellbutrin. I think that it's just wrong that an anti-anixety drug would case agitation as a side-effect. Just wrong. The past few days have been a bit rough. . . I had a few really OCD moments. Like so OCD that they were disruptive. But I feel better today so maybe I've adjusted to the medicene. I hope so, it's not fun getting all worked up over something as dumb as brushing your hair or vacuuming a rug.
I'm really happy right now because I'm leaving tomorrow (early early in the morning) to go to NJ and see Chris! Yay! My Dad's great for taking me up there to visit. I'll be there through the weekend and then leave Monday evening. I'm sure that we'll make the most of our time together. Anyway, that's all for now. I'll try and get into a more regular posting habit. Believe it or not, I do read everyone else's posts daily, I just haven't felt the urge to write anything myself. Hopefully that will change. |
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| 05:40pm 17/05/2005 |
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mood:  irritated
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Today has sucked. Well, it's sorta spill-over. I'm just really annoyed because Suncom changed my service area. . . and now I can't use my cell phone at all. It's on, I just can't make or recieve any calls. I am definitely going to switch to Sprint.
Also I had to go get my licence renewed (it expires at the end of this month). I went to the DMV and for some reason they made me retake the Learner's test, which I failed by 1 question. It's two parts: 10 sign questions and then 25 "general" knowledge questions. You can't miss any of the signs and you can only miss 5 of the questions on the second part. I didn't have a problem with the signs at all, but some of those dumb questions that are designed to trip you up got me on the second part. I missed 6 questions and so I have to go back tomorrow and in addition to the $20 fee that I have to pay to get my licence renewed in the first place, I also have to pay $2 for the privledge of retaking the test. ARG! Annoying. . .
Oh well, I'll just go back tomorrow and do it. I really just wish that I could get everything straightened out with my phone. As soon as I get in touch with Dad, I'm having him take me to the Sprint store. Goodbye Suncom! |
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| 11:22am 15/05/2005 |
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mood:  lonely
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Ah summer... I used to count the days til you started and now I'm counting the days til you end. Funny how things change. |
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| 01:46am 31/03/2005 |
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mood:  sad
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Why can't I stop myself from looking at Alina's LJ? I know that she just doesn't like me and wishes I would leave, but I can't seem to stop myself from checking it to see how she really feels opposed to how she's been acting. So I read it and now I'm sobbing again. At least she's not here tonight so I can cry.
It hurts me so much that she and other people that don't even know me hate me so much. I'm just glad that Lea doesn't hate me now too. The things they say are really horrible. One of the people that replied said this "I'm also appaled that Residence life would put someone with her history in a room with anyone, at least not before asking them if it was okay." I didn't think that anyone could be so cruel about depression and it makes me regret that I told Alina the truth about why I had spent the previous semester away. It also makes me think of what Dad said to me when I told him that I had been struggling with depression. He said that I was too young to be labeling myself as crazy. I didn't think that other people my age would think something like that. I thought that most people had realized that it's a fairly common problem and that having depression or anxiety problems doesn't make you crazy.
The worst part about the whole thing is that I find myself incapable of being mad at Alina so much as being upset at myself that I bother her so much. I rationally know that I can't control how other people react but I still feel so hurt. I also feel like I can't trust people at all. Like unless I know them well I can't trust what they say and do to be how they really feel. So much of the time it seems they're lying.
Another thing that scares me is that she was writing about how she wished that she could make my life so miserable that I would move out and I read what she had listed and realized that even if she did those things it wouldn't be enough to make me leave. It really would be minor compared to the emotional things I had to deal with when I was just a little girl and my parents were more at each other's throats than they are now. I feel really alone. I feel like I'm so messed up compared to other people. I've always been afraid to really open up to people about events in my past because I thought they'd think that I must be horribly messed up and unstable and then they wouldn't want to have anything to do with me. Things like this only reinforce that feeling.
No use in writing more. I don't want to upset anyone or incite them to be mean to Alina. That's not my intention at all with writing this. I'm just alone in a room where I don't feel welcome at all, sobbing from 1:30am to now, and I feel really lonely. I'm just typing so that I can feel connected to something. I don't want to make things bad for her and I don't want to gather comments about what a bitch she is just to make myself feel better, because that really wouldn't mean anything anyway. I just want to talk to someone and since no one is here I'll talk to my LJ.
All she wants is for me to leave her alone. Well, that's all I want too. I just want to not be a bother to her anymore. |
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| 02:22pm 30/03/2005 |
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mood:  silly music: Nebulus - Widespread Panic
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( Me So Silly )
I had a fun day yesterday. I got to play with a cute doggie and a kitty. Yay!
Jessica's art teacher had to be out of town so she had Jessica take care of her pets. So, of course, Jessica came and got me when she was ready to walk the dog back. Lucy's a really cute little dauchound. She kept looking at me with those sad eyes and I'd have to pet her and let her lick me. The cat's name is Nico and she really looks a lot like my cat Miko, which I found amusing. Nico was very friendly so I enjoyed petting her. I'm such a sap when it come to animals. I could have spent hours playing with the animals. I love my fishies, but they just aren't cuddly enough.
The last time I talked to Mom I had her put the phone up to Miko so that I could hear her purring. It made me so happy to hear that. I could imagine her sitting on my lap while I pet her. Sweet kitties...
I don't really have anything else cool to report. Just the same old stuff (not that I don't enjoy it!). |
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| 04:56pm 11/03/2005 |
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mood:  peaceful
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( Quizzes )
It's been snowing all day! It's not sticking to the roads, but it's really pretty. Yay snow! |
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| 02:41pm 06/03/2005 |
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mood:  happy
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 | You scored as Satanism. Your beliefs most closely resemble those of Satanism! Before you scream, do a bit of research on it. Satanism is a religious or philosophical movement centered around Satan or another entity identified with Satan, or centered around the forces of nature, particularly human nature, represented by Satan as an archetype. To be a Satanist, you don't actually have to believe in Satan. Satanism generally focuses upon the spiritual advancement of the self, rather than upon submission to a deity or a set of moral codes. Do some research if you immediately think of the satanic cult stereotype. Your beliefs may also resemble those of earth-based religions such as paganism.
Satanism | | 100% | Paganism | | 85% | Hinduism | | 65% | Islam | | 40% | Atheism | | 25% | Christianity | | 20% | Judaism | | 10% | </td>
Which is the right religion for you?
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I am home for Spring Break. When I think about it, I really won't be here for very long (which is probably why I'm enjoying it as much as I am).
Yesterday was great. I got into Roanoke at around 1am and so I spent the night at my Aunt Amy's house. I got to talk with Dylan (my uncle) during the ride from the bus station to their house. Dylan's a really cool guy, but then he does play in a fairly well-known local punk band, so that probably helps. Anyway, I'm sleeping in their guest bedroom when my little cousin Grayson bursts into the room at around 10am. It was really cute. He opened the door and then when he saw me he got all shy. Such a cutie. I got to visit with them for a bit and then they had to leave to go to a wedding.
Then Mom picked me up in her nice, shiny new car. I never thought I'd see the day... The subaru is still sitting in our drive way though now it has to share with the silver Ford Focus. We talked the whole ride home and when we got to Marion, we went to my grandmother's. My Uncle Mark and his concubine Laura (his gf of 10 years. I don't think they'll ever get married and so it amuses Laura to be called a concubine) were there so I got to visit with them and their jack-russell Willie Mann. It was so cute how excited Sir James was to see me. He ran up with his tail all trembling and licked my face. Then I had lunch: two eggs over easy and some toast with a Mountain Dew (sweet Mtn. Dew) to drink.
After lunch we went home where I was greeted by my kitties. All three of them meowed and stood around me and waited their turn while I picked each one up and love all over them. Then when I went upstairs to take a nap (a nap that would not be begruded by Alina) Zoe and Lexxie followed me and curled up right next to me.
Dinner was my favourite foods: creamed chicken and mashed potatoes along with some other not-important-enough-to-list-here foods. More visiting and then I went with Dad to see Constantine. I really enjoyed that movie and reccomend it to everyone. Then I got to visit with the puppies. Xander and Stormie were so excited to see me. Stormie was smiling the whole time.
Ahhhh... it's nice to be home. |
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| 05:07pm 23/02/2005 |
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mood:  stressed
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| How to make a Adrian |
Ingredients:
1 part mercy
3 parts silliness
3 parts empathy |
Method:
Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Top it off with a sprinkle of wisdom and enjoy! |
Personality cocktailFrom Go-Quiz.com| How to make a Adrian Laurel |
Ingredients:
5 parts friendliness
1 part self-sufficiency
1 part leadership |
Method:
Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Top it off with a sprinkle of lustfulness and enjoy! |
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| 07:55pm 09/02/2005 |
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mood: bouncy
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MY COMPUTER IS FIXED!!!!!
that is all |
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| 09:05pm 06/02/2005 |
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mood:  content
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I'm over the flu, but my computer still won't connect to the network. (I'm on Jessica's computer right now)
I avoided having someone from IT come over to look at my computer while I was sick because no one deserves the flu. But now my roomate Alina has it (she got it from her bf not me, I swear) I have the dilemma. I don't want to expose anyone, but I really, really need my computer for class. So I'll have to expose the IT people. Sorry, I tried to avoid it. |
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